Weird... 0_0

Hi, Guys! Today was an awesome day! Today at lunch, me and my friend grabbed my binder and started drawing portraits of each other! If only I had my phone with me to take pictures of it... I saw one of my friends I haven't seen in awhile and it's been a bit awkward, mostly because I'm just not sure what to talk about. >_< In P.E, it was great! My teacher thought I was mocking him (which I was) but I didn't get in trouble, instead he just laughed. Also when he gave us a water break, one of my friends attempted to step on my heel and instead stepped on my ankle. I yelled ow but then started laughing. My teacher asked me what was up and I said that someone stepped on my ankle while laughing hysterically. He laughed and said that's funny and I said it was freakin hilarious! So, i'm pretty sure my p.e teacher thinks i'm crazy... In French, i sit next to this really cute freshman but my shyness stops me from actually attempting to talk to him. (he has blue eyes which I love!) There's also this guy called Eric who i asked a question and then he asked for my name. I told him and asked if he was Eric with a C... (relates to when i first talked to him and he dissed Eriks with a k.) Suave Vanessa... He seemed to not remember this and i felt so weird and awkward but I remembered that I'm trying to care less about what I do being perceived as weird when it actually isn't. My "friend" who has become a lot more annoying and supposedly wants to get people to like him pretended to be high during P.E and it was so goddamn annoying. He was taking it too far. He's been getting on my nerves lately so I tend to attempt to ignore him, but I don't wanna be a complete bitch so I still kinda talk to him. After school, I went to eat with my friend on which we conversed about the randomest things. ( why do i enjoy sabotaging my weight-loss?!? >:( ) All in all, it was a pretty good day! :) Now I have to annotate a passage for AP Comp and study for a Trig test :'( Don't hesitate to comment! Bai! :3 <3

My Wants!

Now this is where I list what I want to do and avoid the Gollwitzer effect (rewarding self just because you told people what you intend to do).
My Wants:

• I want to be able to socialize with a variety of people!
• I want to lose weight!
• I want to maintain a healthy diet!
• I want have a high self-esteem and be more confident!
• I want to treat my mom and little brother with more respect!
• I want to start running and get better at biking (and learn how to swim)!
• I want to get good grades in school!
• I want to be able to learn from my mistakes and improve myself in every way!
• I want to be able to ask for help and not be shy about asking questions!
• I want to be an overall better person!

Now tell me, What do you want to CHANGE? Please comment and keep reading! Bai! :3 <3

My introduction

Hello! I'm Vanessa. You can read my basic information on the right --->
I'm a sophomore in high school and this was when I've become more aware of things. I've realized how the men in my family haven't done much but complain and that my mother always carries the heaviest burden. I realize that the way I treat my little brother (i tend to scold him often) isn't helping my over-stressed mother. The main component of my worries is my mother. She's always been there for me and has always given such great advice. I want to make her proud and make sure that she doesn't over-exhaust herself getting mad and worrying about people who don't even deserve it. So you could say that this has inspired me to be the very best that I can be. I want to change but the problem is I'm a procrastinator and when I'm able to motivate myself it only happens for a week or so and then its gone. (please excuse my grammatical errors. This is to be expected since I'm brain-dumping.) This, of course, SHOULD NOT be an excuse. There are people who are disabled or who are in worse situations that can do what I want to accomplish. I will list out my wants and dreams, either in three different posts or all together.
Summary: Basically, what inspired me to change is my mother. I love her and I want to repay for all she has done. There's lots of things I have to change but i will list those in a different post.
Thanks! Love you! <3 :3